wow... it's been like, a year since i last posted an entry.

it's good to be back

no life is a waste

the only time we waste is the time we spend

thinking that we are alone...

i can't take another day without you..

no matter how hard i try to live my life as if nothing happened,
i can't seem to stop thinking about you..

sometimes, i just wanna give up.

i miss you so much..

in this world, wishing to be understood is like praying for rain...


...praying for rain in the middle of a desert

i heard (from one of my friends) about this song; Gloomy Sunday which was written by Rezsô Seress who apparently killed himself by jumping from his building months after writing his song...

rumor? urban legend? who knows...

i researched about this on the net and what i came upon was that "Gloomy Sunday" was reffered to as the "Hungarian Suicide Song" not only that but that many thought this song was too depressing to broadcast which kept radio stations from playing the said song.

but how can such a simple song drive people crazy enough to kill themselves?

Gloomy Sunday was revived by popular singers including Sarah Mclachlan, Ricky Nelson, Billie Holiday, Björk even Elvis Costello...

but what makes the song so controversial? is it because that the writer had killed himself that people began to think that the song is cursed? or is it just a myth? an urban legend?